Typhoon Ondoy and Numbness

Today is Sunday and I am still in Los Banos. Well, I don't know where else should I be. There is no television here to give myself updates about the world except the internet connection. It is not raining anymore. In fact, I do not need any help of fluorescent light because the room is well lighted by the sunlight. But for the past two days, it is really frustrating for me because it is always dark, it is always raining.


Yesterday, I learned that there is a typhoon and PAG-ASA named it Ondoy. I was supposed to go to Mandaluyong with my roommate to celebrate her upcoming birthday. But the typhoon and flooding stopped us. We expected flood and heavy traffic of course. We are heading to Manila, what should one expect? Haha! I hate to expect such but we have to or we are going to be stranded in heavy traffic for several hours.


The flood, stranded people on their rooftops, people stranded, waist-deep flood in Metro Manila and SLEX (like imagine SLEX, flooded) are all over facebook. My cousin have been asking me to contact my father because my half-brother is stuck on the roof of his house in Marikina. I wonder what should I do. My father is in Makati, working and has no cellular phone. My mother is in Quezon City and I can't contact her too. She asked me twice or maybe thrice. But all I could respond to myself is what am I going to do? Is there anything I could do if they are in Metro Manila and I am here in Laguna?


I am worried too. I am just not good in showing it the way they show it.


I tried watching the news using my roommates cellphone with TV (China phone). Susan Enriquez from GMA News and Public Affairs was having an interview with a rescued woman staying in an elementary school near Kamuning in Quezon City. They were asking for food, clothes, and rescuers for the other people in their barangay. Another part of the news was that President Gloria Arroyo was having a meeting with other officials on how they are going to rescue the people trapped on the roof of their homes and how they are going to give them what they need in the evacuation centers.


I wonder if these people ever think of what they have done to experience this kind of flooding. PAG-ASA announced that typhoon Ondoy is only signal number 1 for Metro Manila. But the whole of it (or almost) is experiencing heavy floods- floods that are almost the height of a man. Signal number 1 should be giving much water like that. Typhoon Ondoy has given enough amount of rainfall. The water passages or canals are just clogged. The number of trees from the adjacent city which is Antipolo are too low to decrease the water going down to Marikina and other part of Metro Manila.


I pity myself and not the people who needed help and rescuing. I pity myself because I can't worry like others can. I can't even cry for them or worry as much as my cousin worry for my brother. My family could kill me if they would be able to read this.


I think it is reasonable enough to say that this is happening because it is also our fault. I can't find any reason for crying or worrying or whatever I should feel in this situation. 


The people have been dumping their garbage everywhere and anywhere. People have been staying near the river, under the bridge, beside Metro Manila's sapa. They have been dumping their garbages in any running water they could find. Everybody think that the water will carry their garbages. Nobody thought that the garbage they throw there will be stuck at the end of the canal. If not, it will go to sea and poison the marine environment.


If you are a intelligent enough or you are spending time in the academe, you should know these. You are already irritated of these non-sense because you know these already. But how many of us knew these things, these facts or these lies? 10% of the population perhaps?


I am rude because I am going to say that a lot of the countrymen have been ignorant of the effect of their activities and their solid wastes dumped everywhere and anywhere and they are blind to see the cause of the floods and the over flowing canals.


I am rude and stupid to feel this. I am rude because I won't pity the people who are crying on TV, asking for help and blaming the government for doing nothing for them while they have done nothing to avoid this and help the environment not to suffer. It is just fair for the environment to give its justice and show no mercy to the people who showed no respect.

Maybe, I was...

I thought it would be best that people would be honest with their feelings. I thought that if you would tell the person you love,like, or you can't forget how you feel, then it would be less complicated.

Maybe, I really did not think about it. Maybe, I was wrong, really wrong. I made everything complicated.

One should learn how to keep thier feelings. If time should come that he/she needs to say it, he/she should know the right time to strike. It's because we do not know how people would react. They may reject the feeling or may not take it seriously.

By this, I have come to realize that all 100% honesty may only ruin what you treasure. Maybe friendship, peace of mind, and the best of all- simplicity could easily fade.

I am not an experienced person in this life's journey. I know I have to think more, learn to remember the truth, and learn not to master lying.