Foreplay

I am dreaming
Of the ways I could die

My sanity is beside me
Losing
Breaking
Melting
Then I'm dying...

I am hanging in the bathroom
Neck tied
And in the middle
Of the room
Slowly
I die
Grasping for every breathe
But
Not fighting death
My body fights
But the soul
elopes
with death

I am dreaming
again
and again
Every time that the year ends
Every time that the lonely year ends

I am bleeding
In my room
On my bed
With sheets so red, bloody
Beside me is my sanity
Lacerated my skin

my veins

my soul...
Eloping with death

I am dreaming
repeatedly foreseeing
the death

the excruciating pain
of eloping with death

the ecstasy of happiness
in the height of freedom...
from life's sharp claws

I see me
Innocently walking

Then I am stabbed
With a mighty knife
Shiny knife

Then I am bleeding
And life's last sight of light
Was the red blue sky
On the afternoon that I die

The afternoon
I
successfully
escaped life

I embrace freedom
because death

It is my freedom

~10/21/2011~